and so the swan turned into an ugly duckling.

humans are supposed to progress. start with nothing and turn it into something. be a no one and become a someone. start homely and become a princess. 

so what do i do if i did it backwards? i was born a swan.  i was an established, SAG card carrying, money making, actress by the age of 6. by the time i was 8 i didn't even need to audition anymore, i got the job if i showed up. on top of all that i was making enough money to support my endeavors in LA without my parent's financial help, even though our family lived in Idaho.  . 

so how on earth do i build on that? i've been going downhill since i was 12 years old and decided to have a "normal" childhood. as girls grow up, we are supposed to be constantly progressing and learning. and here i am stuck in a rut, envying the 6 year old me that was set for life. don't get me wrong, i'm not opposed to having my college paid for by little me, but i feel like i did life backwards. i'm craving success, but no success can beat what happened when i was still in grade school. 

and so the swan turned into an ugly duckling. 

that's all.